Baby steps, but I paid two ambulance bills this week (one today), so there are only two left to fight. One is 450, the other one i have no idea. The ones I paid both were around 50-55 dollar, so that seemed reasonable after insurance paid their share. Much better than the 800 they wanted at first.
Getting things done feels so good!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Friday, December 28, 2007
Waking Up
Today, it feels like I am waking up from a long period of overwhelmedness (I almost wrote depression, but still like to say it wasn't that, since I never felt unhappy, just TOTALLY overwhelmed and unable to do anything about it)
I look around me and see the debris of my overwhelmedness and actually started taking steps to DO something about it. I am looking at medical bills and figuring out which ones can be paid, which one should be fought. I finally realized that a bunch of places (like our local hospital) don't even have Zack's Katie Beckett information, so how can they bill them??? Not to mention that I still can't find Zack's Katie Beckett card, which is most likely my own fault, but I will take steps to get a new one. (Thank you, sis ^^)
I found other stuff that had been laying around and took care of it today. Not all of it, by all means, but just getting started feels soooooooo good!
And I really feel awakened and ready to go, which also might have to do with another decision I have made and am preparing for by taking care of all this medical crap now.
Meanwhile, Zack seems to mope around the house more and more, it almost feels like he misses the structure of school. The holidays seem not impossible, but harder for him to deal with the social demands of his siblings. He is ok, but I can tell that he is using a lot of will power to be so. Which I admire him greatly for. He has made so much progress over the last year!
I look around me and see the debris of my overwhelmedness and actually started taking steps to DO something about it. I am looking at medical bills and figuring out which ones can be paid, which one should be fought. I finally realized that a bunch of places (like our local hospital) don't even have Zack's Katie Beckett information, so how can they bill them??? Not to mention that I still can't find Zack's Katie Beckett card, which is most likely my own fault, but I will take steps to get a new one. (Thank you, sis ^^)
I found other stuff that had been laying around and took care of it today. Not all of it, by all means, but just getting started feels soooooooo good!
And I really feel awakened and ready to go, which also might have to do with another decision I have made and am preparing for by taking care of all this medical crap now.
Meanwhile, Zack seems to mope around the house more and more, it almost feels like he misses the structure of school. The holidays seem not impossible, but harder for him to deal with the social demands of his siblings. He is ok, but I can tell that he is using a lot of will power to be so. Which I admire him greatly for. He has made so much progress over the last year!
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Happiness
Tonight, I was making bread. In the living room, Zack and his 3yo sister were playing. She was building with Duplo and lincoln logs, he entered into her world and helped her build a cabin and play with her cow and farmer and horse.
Such simple happiness after all the stress this summer. It was beautiful to watch them together and realize how much progress Zack has made.
Meanwhile, Zack asked me to bake five loaves of bread as teacher's gifts at school. I am happy he considers that a worthy and good present for his teachers. It was totally Zack's idea, I wasn't going to add anything to the Christmas madness. But am very happy to fullfill his request. Tonight should get three done, two more tomorrow.
There is still much overwhelmedness in my life, but I can deal thanks to the happiness in moments like tonight's.
Such simple happiness after all the stress this summer. It was beautiful to watch them together and realize how much progress Zack has made.
Meanwhile, Zack asked me to bake five loaves of bread as teacher's gifts at school. I am happy he considers that a worthy and good present for his teachers. It was totally Zack's idea, I wasn't going to add anything to the Christmas madness. But am very happy to fullfill his request. Tonight should get three done, two more tomorrow.
There is still much overwhelmedness in my life, but I can deal thanks to the happiness in moments like tonight's.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Katie Beckett
OK, thanks to my sis spending her day calling around, things seem to be ok with Katie Beckett after all. The ones who screwed up are the therapist office. Meanwhile, one of Zack's individual therapies and a family therapy got missed thanks to the screw up.
Life is never boring around here!
Life is never boring around here!
Monday, December 17, 2007
Administrative Sigh
Today, I got called by the therapist office that Zack's Katie Beckett is inactive. WTF! I have NO idea what is going on, but for today his therapy has been canceled and I have no idea whether we'll have family therapy tomorrow. Such a pain to figure out.
Not to mention that I still have a stack of medical bills on my desk which I have been ignoring. Not good. I feel just sooooooooooooooooo totally overwhelmed, blech. It is almost like I am paralyzed and can't do anything about it. WHich is nonsense of course, but I will have to work myself through this. Suck it up and deal with it. It sounds so easy, doesn't it? So why is it so hard????
One thing I forgot to mention about family therapy last week. K brought up the issue of hubby yelling at the 3yo. It was 3am, so there is some justification, but I think there is a line that was crossed when he got into her face, on top of her, and yelled at her, calling her names. I told him to stop, but it feels just so totally wrong. I am happy K brought it up and Sylvia told him 'Yes, I cried and I got on mama;s lap, and that made me feel better'. The therapist asked how it made K feel, and she said a bit scared. I agree :( Hubby did not react to any of those accusations.
He is so depressed and things are not good with him, but those are issues for another blog. It just adds to my overwhelmedness. Sigh.
Not to mention that I still have a stack of medical bills on my desk which I have been ignoring. Not good. I feel just sooooooooooooooooo totally overwhelmed, blech. It is almost like I am paralyzed and can't do anything about it. WHich is nonsense of course, but I will have to work myself through this. Suck it up and deal with it. It sounds so easy, doesn't it? So why is it so hard????
One thing I forgot to mention about family therapy last week. K brought up the issue of hubby yelling at the 3yo. It was 3am, so there is some justification, but I think there is a line that was crossed when he got into her face, on top of her, and yelled at her, calling her names. I told him to stop, but it feels just so totally wrong. I am happy K brought it up and Sylvia told him 'Yes, I cried and I got on mama;s lap, and that made me feel better'. The therapist asked how it made K feel, and she said a bit scared. I agree :( Hubby did not react to any of those accusations.
He is so depressed and things are not good with him, but those are issues for another blog. It just adds to my overwhelmedness. Sigh.
Friday, December 7, 2007
First Family Therapy
We had our first family therapy. It was ... interesting.
This was mostly a 'getting to know each other' type of meeting and I am afraid he is starting to get to know them :p
We had to introduce our selves, so we first had a few who gave their real names. Then we got to Zack. He told everyone 'I am God'. This was followed by 'Devourer of Worlds' and the female 'To Be Ruler of the Universe'. Then we had 'The Idiot' and as a climax, we got 'The Murderer' Later she added that she was the murderer of devils. Which i guess makes it a bit better?
It only got better from here. The 'I am the murderer' introduction was greeted by the therapist by 'You seem full of anger'. I feel a bit sorry for the guy, having to deal with our family.
After the hour, he concluded that he got to know our family a bit better and that he saw that there is a lot of closeness and that there is a great sense of humor. (I think that was just a way of saying that we are weird, think Monty Python kind of humor)
We all had to find a job, I really loved Ysa's 'I am unemployed'. When he asked what she would do being unemployed she said 'Watch television all day and eat chocolate'
One fun thing, when he asked everyone who was in charge, they all immediately looked at me. He tried to explain to them that my hubby is in charge too, they didn't seem to be too convinced :p But that's a story for another blog.
This was mostly a 'getting to know each other' type of meeting and I am afraid he is starting to get to know them :p
We had to introduce our selves, so we first had a few who gave their real names. Then we got to Zack. He told everyone 'I am God'. This was followed by 'Devourer of Worlds' and the female 'To Be Ruler of the Universe'. Then we had 'The Idiot' and as a climax, we got 'The Murderer' Later she added that she was the murderer of devils. Which i guess makes it a bit better?
It only got better from here. The 'I am the murderer' introduction was greeted by the therapist by 'You seem full of anger'. I feel a bit sorry for the guy, having to deal with our family.
After the hour, he concluded that he got to know our family a bit better and that he saw that there is a lot of closeness and that there is a great sense of humor. (I think that was just a way of saying that we are weird, think Monty Python kind of humor)
We all had to find a job, I really loved Ysa's 'I am unemployed'. When he asked what she would do being unemployed she said 'Watch television all day and eat chocolate'
One fun thing, when he asked everyone who was in charge, they all immediately looked at me. He tried to explain to them that my hubby is in charge too, they didn't seem to be too convinced :p But that's a story for another blog.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
FamilyTherapy
Tomorrow, at 9am, we'll have our first ever family therapy. It will be ... interesting. The kids are beyond thrilled about it. Their explanation 'They will put us on electric chairs, with buttons to shock the others. We cannot leave the room till no one has been shocked for half an hour'
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